Imagine

Someone asked me why I got so involved in this case if I had nothing to do with it.
I have spoke with many people to do with this case and I have seen people's hurt and anguish. I have been contacted by people who have been though this kind of situation and through it all, the questions still raised themselves in my head.
Before I started this site I told myself the story in my own words to see what I believed.
Now I am going to tell you the story, in plain words, with no extra facts like the 999 tapes or anything else. Then tell me what you believe:

Let me ask you this?

If you have a child and you left them at home, with me for instance and you trusted me and 5 hours later I rang to say nothing happened but your child was at the hospital. I also forgot to tell you that your child previously had a fit in my care and I never told you.
You go to the hospital and the doctors tell you that your child, that was healthy and happy that morning is dying, if this isn't bad enough, it wasn't accidental (these are professional doctors and not just one doctor but many treated your child). You then have to be cleared of any wrong doing.

Meanwhile I am not even sure what has happened, all I know is your child is sick, in hospital after leaving me but I am too distraught to leave my home or care for any other children.
Am I aware she is even dead yet?

Now it gets worse, you as the parents have to be interviewed and cleared and then I do too (as to find out all the details - this is standard procedure).

But I am not cleared.

Can you imagine what you would be feeling by now?

You as the parent are told from all these doctors and police officers that there is so many symptoms pointing to SBS (a theory many believe not to be true, you probably never even thought of it before but now its your reality).
These doctors that have trained for many, many years, who treat children every day tell you that your child's neck is snapped but I told you nothing happened.

How does that add up? Do you believe me or the Doctor?

And then my family and I launch a website which may I add we never ever mention your child's name, we do not need anyone's sympathy, I am telling the truth.

We all go to trial, The experts point out all the scientifically proven facts of why SBS is the cause (while my family and I are berating them on our website but the trial is coming to a close now so I must mention your child's name at least and pass on my condolences - it's been two years and now I do it).
You as the parents sit and listen every single day to what happened your child and how in my defence I am a modern day Mary Poppins with a glowing reference.
I am found guilty but I don't want to accept this alternative so I launch an appeal.

You have just sat through a trial that 10 people thought I was guilty, you have just heard the Judge tell me I am guilty and you are just about to grieve when all of a sudden your everyday is seeing this appeal.

There is nothing to prove my innocence, only my word and the fact that some place in this country and at some time, some people got other cases wrong and therefore I am going to use that against the system.
I am going to drum up enough media support that someone will have to listen, after all everyone reads a story and wants to know the ending.
Every Judge and Jury know this.

But no one has explained to you what happened your child, If I am innocent.
What did I do?
Did your child simply fall and accidentally hurt themselves or did I shake her?

You will never know if the media keep spinning a yarn from my side, if I keep getting Jokers to represent me and fooling people into thinking that this is a miscarriage of Justice.

Your child died from massive head injuries, an over-extended neck (snapped), blind, bleeding of the brain and eyes, a haemorrage (all consistent with SBS), she lay in a morgue for 2 months while doctors did tests to rule out anything other than SBS and yet I still say I am innocent.


NOW WHAT DO YOU BELIEVE?
SHOULD I BE FREE TO GO HOME TO MY CHILDREN?

Explanation of Some Kind

When I set up this blog, it wasn't a support site for Maeve's memory or for her family. They didn't need support, they had Justice.

I set it up becuase I was sick to my back teeth of hearing how Keran was innocent and the whole world was wrong. How Experts who save people's lives were wrong (till they agreed with Keran). How everything our Judicial System stood for was a lie. How the CPS were covering a great conspiracy theory and covering the tracks of doctors. How it was right form Jury Member's to break the law and speak out.

You name it, I heard it all.

I set this site up to show the story from another point of view. I knew people wouldn't like that. "There is nothing worse than opposition when your on a level playing field and hitting for the home run!"
I knew that I would anger people with my thoughts and opinions and although I knew many others believed the theories, I didn't expect the blog to have as much of a reation and response. I didn't expect to be contacted by so many journalists, I didn't expect to be able to correspond with doctors from all over the world via email, some who do and some who don't believe in SBS. I've learned the true nature of people. People fight for what they believe is true, through blind force and sheer determination.

I have never insulted Kerans supporters for fighting for what they believe in. I will quote Penny Mellor here because no one has said a more fascinating comment to be true: "I believe no matter what anyone does somebody will always find fault with it. Each of you is entitled to do whatever you feel is required to get your point of view heard, this is a democracy."

Originally I had only intended to post a view from people who believed Keran was guilty and then I thought (after receiving all kinds of comments from her supporter's) that maybe if they didn't have to keep proclaiming her innocence and had a discussion about it instead then maybe we could see why they believed her. Maybe people's opinion's changed because of her supporter's and maybe I changed other's opinions. I decided to give everyone a fair chance to speak (sometimes that went too far and I have deleted/moderated many comments) but at the same time I wanted people to hear what both sides said. I could have done what Carers4carers do and only posted nice things but then it really would have been an us and them scenario. People that read this site see things not as a whole but as two halves and they have decide what they believe, they are never fooled into believing everything is rosy.

If I wanted to stir it up, I could just post comments that slate Keran, that tell the bad side only and the campaign could then hope that the person reading would read the carers4carers site too before making up their mind but I don't do that, I let them view both sides and arguments. I won't apologise for what you call 'stirring thing up', it is not my intention. I am just stating the facts as I see them. I didn't lie about the March or the petition. I put it there for all to see
and I didn't block the comment from Keran's supporters telling people why they did it.
I don't agree with it, as does many other people, it was the wrong time to do it but your attacking me and this site just goes to show that no matter what you do, you do not want an alternative to Keran being Innocent. You ask us to unite, that we all want a common cause of Justice, that in reality we all want the same thing, the truth - but as far as I am aware, the people who believe Keran is guilty have found the truth and maybe even peace, the people who believe she is innocent still fight for her and that is their right, just don't look down on the people who do not believe you.